July 20, 2005 - 3:41 pm
So yeah i have a jealousy issue and i have always had it and i want to get rid of it becuz true love is patience, kind, and not envious, and that is the kind i love i really have for this person but yet everytime i see her w/ someone else or hear about something fun she did with other people i just get really envious and i dont know why, i dont even live near her. i want for her to be happy- that is what if i want. if it means for her to be without me? then yes. but more than that i want to make her happy, and ib guess if others are making her happy she might decide she doesnt need me anymore- thats what i am afraid of. but that is retarded, we have so much history and she needs me- shed never be able to get rid of me. but I DONT WANT HER TO EVER FEEL LIKE THAT! everytime i try to do something nice i look like a dork and everytime i try to be thoughtful i look pathetic. but im too connected- we have plans to get an apartment for goodness sake. i need to get over it right? i love her and if i cant be with her i certainly want her to be not lonely and happy.
